[a swatch of lavender]: a self portrait (2018)

[a swatch of lavender]: a self portrait is commissioned by Gibney Dance for American Realness 2018 and presented in partnership with Participant Inc. Performed by a rotating cast of local artists: Hilary Clark, NIC Kay, Will Rawls, Hayley Silverman, and others. Also featuring a book created in collaboration with sidony oneal, Litia Perta, and Sharita Towne.

full moon in Taurus: of the body, for the body

reading as the invisible act i “do” in my head

but always is embodied or else i could not hold a book the book as a dance, as a set of steps and gestures that my fingertips can hold:

i page, i palm, i point—i

touch my mouth (this is the book too)

then close myself, shelve it away.

like the dance, it is no more and it can never be again. ephemeral.

which i know i should find comforting but which is, instead, for me, disconcerting. out of concert. i did

not agree to this. like so many things.

the body, an object—I object, I say no…there is a blood mystery and although I can be weighed,

measured, prodded, counted, discounted—the Thing is,

I is also a dance

a set of steps,

gestures,

a make-you-feel

and then I’m over.